i wonder how accurate this test is!
im not one to talk about my personal health issues....not just the net but ever, but recently ive had a spurt of health issues, severe sciatica which left me on crutches for best part of a year, and more recently i was diagnosed with Bell's Palsy, which apparently bought on by stress, and i think ive developed a little case of OCD, its not like full blown stuff, but ive noticed i kinda involuntary do things...tidy up stack of magazines and piles of paper...place mats on the table have to correctly aligned etc etc i dont like things out of place anymore....
2 weeks ago i did suffer a anxiety attack, it was random as hell, just at work doing what i do, and then bam i was all disorientated and stuff and heavy breathing, i didnt even know what it was till i saw the doc next day!
i wonder if i do the test monthly i would have noticed a change.....
just a random thought...
When I was young I never talked about myself, even to my best friends. I was very shy, hardly talked at all. I was an enigma, they could not figure me out. Excuse me while I take the long way to explain what lead to a change. Part of my psychological need, way over explain things.
In March of 83 I went to work for an international company called, Berkel. I was their in house repair tech for the electronics equipment...printers like used in meat packing plants, printers used at the meat counters and the electronic weight scales used in those situations. Field techs repaired in the field and sent us the bad parts and I repaired them. In 3 months I got promoted and took over being the company specialist of the electronic products which I had top know everything and took support calls from the company techs having problems, I also had to teach classes (trained techs from the US, Canada, Puerto Rico and traveled to Mexico City, Mexico to train their engineers) and I'd write manuals, newsletters and service bulletins.
That job forced me to be in front of people, company big wigs down to the people in my classes. I'd be a wreck a week before I taught a week long class, hardly sleep and during the class I'd go into auto pilot. Steve and Ed, the in house repair techs I hired to replace me after I was promoted asked, "How the hell do you do that?" They worked in the same huge room I taught in and heard everything. I said, "What?" They wanted to know how I could teach a week long class 8 hours a day and impart all the information I did and not look at notes or the stacks of manuals/newsletters/service bulletins I handed out. I said, "Survival." I was so high that week, a natural high, I'd be so pumped up, I barely slept the whole week, even less than the week before. The first time I taught the class I was done in 3 days, I went so fast...I had the mechanical specialist (meat slicers, huge bowl mixers like maybe used in a bakery, choppers and more) come up and go over the mechanical equipment for 2 days. I had to learn to SLOW DOWN and fill 5 days.
That was the beginning of my change. Later when out of work I was talking to a employment counselor, somebody to help me get a good job. Things were bad around here then, jobs were hard to find. She said I needed to seek out a stress class, I was too easy going for being out of work, I took it too well. Long story short, I agreed to meet with a girl going to Notre Dame uni for a PHD in Psychology and we talked about everything. She was helping me with stress I didn't show, I was helping her since I agreed to let her write about me in her doctorate dissertation. She graduated and then I got into a group thing, the only guy with 9 women. We all had grown up in alcoholic families and we talked about everything.
Those things got me to be able to talk in front of people and talk about anything about myself. Now I think sometimes I need to learn to shut-up. Like now. :lol:
Now people may understand me a little here.
