Small talk & Chit chat

Yeah see now reading was something I had to learn as a kid. We didn't have a choice.

Mine is Olanzapine been on it for many years, now diabetic as well and some blood pressure they love to lay on the pills, as much as i hate it i take it when i feel like i need sleep, I don't enjoy sleep cause of how I wake up feel like i've been smacked round the head with a baseball bat in the morning or whenever i roll out of bed.

I'm not so different in some ways as many like me at times you think eff it all i'll do it my way but as unstable as i can be at times im not in hospital so my only real aim is to not be in one being on 24 hour obersvations ect. I don't really care about much else in some ways live life a little on the edge at times make desisions people fear to take.

I'm a straight ace been through enough crap in life to not wish it on anyone else yep it makes you stronger and other things hit you so hard it weakens you for a time you get past that gradually and start to at least feel somewhat normal again.

My issues like many are complex most wouldn't understand the weirdness of it or how waking up after a really intense dream will ruin your day make it impossible to shake see things and hear all kinds of things where you mind is playing tricks on you it can be at times pretty unbareable, but the next day it's at times still there in the background but not as forcefull.

After my accident the real issue was not really being me, not knowing me not knowing others having big blank spaces of memory where you just don't know things, but truma is a solid thing my earilest memories are nearly drowning at age 3 and and some park with a plane climbing thing, rest up until near 8 is a blank idk if that's really normal or not.

Had doctors and such of all kinds on me for years the best feeling in all that time was when the brain doc said this file is too big i had someone put it into a digital format you don't need to see an 8 inch folder on my table each visit, weird how that helped more than the many hours we'd spoken.

The past is hard to leave behind for everyone on many things, it's more to be able to cope, but the future we can't change it will happen to us all and while people are so fearful of that reality and dodge it at every turn it's far better to face it head on it will at least be easier in the end.

So yea I get it, it's just one of many issues we have, but the world we are in atm i don't like it take me back to the 80's this world is not going in a good direction all to often at times, the whole reason things don't get sorted out and bubble up again and cause issues is people don't speak there mind at times so things are never really dealt with they are kinda somewhat pushed to the curb for another gereration to resolve and at some stage that really needs to change in all aspects of life.

my biggest issue is with governments without going into it in detail why do you have say an energy secutary that doesn't even have a degree in anything to do with energy they are making desisions on things they know nothing about, it really grinds at me that kind of thing.

but i've waffled plenty now but idk some valid points in that mix... i think

AlienALX said:

Yeah see now reading was something I had to learn as a kid. We didn't have a choice.

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I grew up reading Gamesmaster Magazine with Sir Patrick Moore on the front cover, I think he appeared on 2 x issues, Couldn't get enough of it ^_^

I used to go for drinks with domanic diamond you should know him tbh

I loved my early adult years i got to enjoy so many things and meet so many really famous developers, me and my friends used to goto a show back then called ECTS it was held every six months was a massive games show back then, real happy days

in more ways than i can go into lol

I took that once. Gives you moobs apparently. Sadly it did not have the calming effect of either Risperidone or Quetiapine, and I need that in my life.

And yeah, many people take their lives for granted. Give someone real mental issues and they would soon understand it very well. Not like "Well Timmy called me gay and now I want to die !".

Jesus, if they grew up before the 90s they would have a shock.

The world totally bewilders me now. Which is why I choose to avoid it. Nothing makes sense to me any more.

Like, Black Lives Matter. Yeah I know, I went there. I've never been racist, have multiple black family members and so on. But I just don't get it. What do they want? what are they trying to achieve?

It seems they want people to accept they are different. OK, so we accept you are different and now what? do you expect to be treated differently? or that you will bleed a different colour blood?

I'm all for the principle of Black Lives Matter, but I just fail to see the point. Once again you will force acceptance of something onto people instead of teaching it to them, and once again you will cause as many problems as you solve.

I'm mentally ill. Always have been and well, by assumption I guess I always will be. However, if someone treated me differently because of it I think I would die. I don't expect someone to have to deal with "unmedicated me" and nor would I expect them to. It would scare the f*****g life out of them to see me without medication. It even scares me ffs.

The last thing I would ever want to do is control people via manipulation by using it. Which is why I totally don't get BLM at all.

It's the same way that I have gay family members and hell, I even went to a gay wedding and it was great and all (it really was, thoroughly enjoyed it) but I would never want to force someone to feel the way I do.

There, I said it, force. You see? it goes back to people saying horrible things to me about my dead father when I was a kid. Do I wish they hadn't said it? would I care to make it go away? would I like to get an apology? F no. Why would I want that? I know they'd be lying LOL.

If someone doesn't like me and they tell me I appreciate it. Congratulations, I probably like you even more now for having the balls to say it to me. I don't care, but I appreciate it. If someone pretended to like me but every time I was out of the room they talked crap about me? yeah, see now that I don't like.

"Don't Pi55 on my back and tell me it's raining".

But this age of either sheer dishonesty or not even having the balls to have an opinion on something? scares me.

WTF are we going to do if China decides to invade? sit and cry in the bloody corner?

Dicehunter said:

I grew up reading Gamesmaster Magazine with Sir Patrick Moore on the front cover, I think he appeared on 2 x issues, Couldn't get enough of it ^_^

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No no, you read the book. Or else you got either a clump around the head, smacked on the knuckles with a metal ruler or you stood for the rest of the class with your nose pressed to the blackboard.

I still check to see if I have chalk up my nose.

I'm obesssive with info about any subject that i take an intrest in i'll dig until there is nothing to dig out, many wouldn't like my opinions and i'd only really state them fully to people i care about, but i really hope things get better as time moves forward beacuse i don't really think most people either want to think about it or even know about most things they are so ill prepared for situations that might happen it's utter madness, i sure hope the future is a better one cause it's a very dangerous road.

BLM is funded millions upon millions and while most of the people involved are perfectly normal and just want a fairer deal, there is a side to that group that is also funded and pretty much exploiting the situation for political gains for rich ass hats.

I think having a debate about the past is one thing learning teaching and getting it all out in the open, but the one thing i think this group without directing it at race needs to understand is that everyone is dealt with in the same manner on many things the race is an issue in the mindset but i don't think it's the reality of how police deal with you there are enough cases to say it's not the reality, plus smashing up history sorry not for that cause that leads down another path.

yep world is mad always has been really but it's at a bit of a boiling point atm.

I don't have moobs but i have a big belly but if given the reason i can still run 15 miles a day if i really have too, but i hate the outside world, thou more recently pop outside in the garden and talk to next door and chat with there nutty kids, i look at it as shock therapy.

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I'm obesssive with info about any subject that i take an intrest in i'll dig until there is nothing to dig out, many wouldn't like my opinions and i'd only really state them fully to people i care about, but i really hope things get better as time moves forward beacuse i don't really think most people either want to think about it or even know about most things they are so ill prepared for situations that might happen it's utter madness, i sure hope the future is a better one cause it's a very dangerous road.

BLM is funded millions upon millions and while most of the people involved are perfectly normal and just want a fairer deal, there is a side to that group that is also funded and pretty much exploiting the situation for political gains for rich ass hats.

I think having a debate about the past is one thing learning teaching and getting it all out in the open, but the one thing i think this group without directing it at race needs to understand is that everyone is dealt with in the same manner on many things the race is an issue in the mindset but i don't think it's the reality of how police deal with you there are enough cases to say it's not the reality, plus smashing up history sorry not for that cause that leads down another path.

yep world is mad always has been really but it's at a bit of a boiling point atm.

I don't have moobs but i have a big belly but if given the reason i can still run 15 miles a day if i really have too, but i hate the outside world, thou more recently pop outside in the garden and talk to next door and chat with there nutty kids, i look at it as shock therapy.

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It won't change anything (BLM). They can not force rich people, for example, to care. That will never happen. And let's face it, that's what it is about.

The last bit about the kids made me laugh. I avoid kids as best I can. I don't dislike them, they just make me very nervous. I suppose that's payment for me being a total little git LOL.

I like kids, they always seem to like me cause I talk to them as i would anyone else i.e don't talk down to them kinda thing, but yea they make me on edge sure won't see me holding babies these days. just not as confident in that way anymore.

I look at it in the way that once i've had enough they are not my problem lol

Does anyone have spare change laying around? 500K for ALL games on Steam.

https://www.tweaktown.com/news/7515...o-buy-every-single-game-from-steam/index.html

Dicehunter said:

I grew up reading Gamesmaster Magazine with Sir Patrick Moore on the front cover, I think he appeared on 2 x issues, Couldn't get enough of it ^_^

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I used to watch that show, purely for the cheats

Warchild said:

I used to watch that show, purely for the cheats

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Yeah I remember those, Never had the ones I needed though XD

Warchild said:

I used to watch that show, purely for the cheats

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I watched it for Diane Youdale lmao. Phwoar !

I modded the shed

The lid ripped off and the door totally snapped from the hinges when we had those bad winds about two years ago lol.

So according to Gamersenexus who doesnt spew BS like many sites we see

Regarding 3080 review date (which i believe is today woohoo)

The date was moved because of global shipping delays causing some other regions (outside North America) to receive cards late for reviewers; in effort to keep it fair between reviewers around the world, NVIDIA pushed its review embargo date back.

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I think there is a good deal of truth in that one.

Really interesting mini documenatary series here looking into AMD cpu

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pYF7Qym9Pq0

So I like to now and then, Rarely though, Shop on OCUK for various bits and pieces, I've also got an account on their forum that I've had since 2007 which gives me free DPD shipping on anything over £50, Went to log into it today as it also has a very useful members market place that you can buy and sell, You have to be a member for at least a year though with 1000+ posts just to make sure you're not a scammer.

Anyway I go to login, Wrong password, Recheck my password, Wrong password, Click on the forgot password link, Password link never comes through, I send a message to the forum mods explaining this, Nothing, I wait 48 hours, Send another, Nothing, I also send a message to them over Facebook, The message is seen but I get no reply, I also go to login to my "Trust" which is your seller information, Rating etc... password invalid, I checked post history, Nothing has changed, This has happened before but various people with too much power on those forums like to mess around with peoples accounts for whatever reason they make up in their heads.

This brings me to this point, Over moderation and the god complex that some mods have is getting a little too much on multiple forums, So many forums have mods that have this "I am in charge" mindset, Toxic, So glad OC3D has human mods.

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So I like to now and then, Rarely though, Shop on OCUK for various bits and pieces, I've also got an account on their forum that I've had since 2007 which gives me free DPD shipping on anything over £50, Went to log into it today as it also has a very useful members market place that you can buy and sell, You have to be a member for at least a year though with 1000+ posts just to make sure you're not a scammer.

Anyway I go to login, Wrong password, Recheck my password, Wrong password, Click on the forgot password link, Password link never comes through, I send a message to the forum mods explaining this, Nothing, I wait 48 hours, Send another, Nothing, I also send a message to them over Facebook, The message is seen but I get no reply, I also go to login to my "Trust" which is your seller information, Rating etc... password invalid, I checked post history, Nothing has changed, This has happened before but various people with too much power on those forums like to mess around with peoples accounts for whatever reason they make up in their heads.

This brings me to this point, Over moderation and the god complex that some mods have is getting a little too much on multiple forums, So many forums have mods that have this "I am in charge" mindset, Toxic, So glad OC3D has human mods.

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Firstly.

Your buying account will probably use a different email address to the forum. Mine does. My login for trust is the same as my login for buying ETC. It uses an email address I have had for 10 years. One I rarely even check let alone bother with.

However when buying I have to use that email, or lose all of my privs (MM, free shipping on anything etc).

If you ever have an issue with OCUK mate go here -



Don't send a web note, don't go on Facebook etc. There's no point even phoning because their service in that area is sodding awesome.

Funny you posted today because I ordered something that wasn't in stock. The res was, but not the HDD. Then I didn't know why it hadn't shipped because I didn't check that old email account etc. However, I went on the forum and asked them to refund the HDD which brought the order down to £38 for the res and they sent it DPD.

Which brings me back to this. Are you certain that the email you use for the shop is the one you are sending emails to? not your forum account, the actual shop email address?

Because I had the same issue. I'm like WTF why are these emails not arriving and then the penny dropped.

AlienALX said:

Firstly.

Your buying account will probably use a different email address to the forum. Mine does. My login for trust is the same as my login for buying ETC. It uses an email address I have had for 10 years. One I rarely even check let alone bother with.

However when buying I have to use that email, or lose all of my privs (MM, free shipping on anything etc).

If you ever have an issue with OCUK mate go here -

Don't send a web note, don't go on Facebook etc. There's no point even phoning because their service in that area is sodding awesome.

Funny you posted today because I ordered something that wasn't in stock. The res was, but not the HDD. Then I didn't know why it hadn't shipped because I didn't check that old email account etc. However, I went on the forum and asked them to refund the HDD which brought the order down to £38 for the res and they sent it DPD.

Which brings me back to this. Are you certain that the email you use for the shop is the one you are sending emails to? not your forum account, the actual shop email address?

Because I had the same issue. I'm like WTF why are these emails not arriving and then the penny dropped.

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My forum and store emails are the exact same, Even the exact same passwords, This has happened twice over the last few years and always turned out to be something a mod fiddled with on the back end.