i'd like to personally take the liberty of filling you all in on the main important facts that tox, himself, "missed out".
yesyes, we'll do coursework together in a while, lemme get ready and come over, nic.
a lot of this advice, i agree with - just leave it, maybe i'll come crawling back.
if i hadn't left tox on new year - the start of a new year, a new beginning and all that jazz, when would i have done? tox knows that i don't hate him, and by telling you all "oh, polly dumped me on new year and she said that she doesn't want to waste energy on me anymore" makes me seem like one hell of an evil biatch. D:
tbh, :bs:
but i can't help what you all think, can i? but maybe clear my name, slightly.
you may not have noticed, as you guys don't even have a clue who i am, but i'm more of an independent person than tox. in fact, tox is the most overly-dependent person i've ever met, and right now, i can't deal being the one he's so totally dependent of. i can't be the one to remind him of deadlines and give him the oh-so-many tips and added paragraphs to his coursework when i have my own deadlines been and gone, without time to catch up with them. this doesn't exactly [nic, stop phoning me! i'm losing my train of thought, here. D: he's not following this advice, guys..?] ... uhm... oh yeah, replying to this and attempting to clear my name doesn't exactly help on the front that we go back to school in a couple of days, and i still have mountains of work to do. and i can't be the one telling him to buckle down and work instead of mucking around in class and just sitting there copying whatever i write down when it happens every lesson. if you guys are going to teach him anything on this forum, get to know what he's really like, first. i know that you probably reckon you know him quite well, but theres only so much you can learn from a person when you talk to them online. he has flaws, just as everyone else does. he's just better at hiding his own, but "mentioning" everyone else's. trust me, i have many flaws that he is oblivious to; god knows how, and hopefully you won't find out about them, also.
nic mentioned "family problems"... come on, everyone knows what that means; i won't bother going into it. but, linked to that are very severe financial problems, and because of the split, my dad's not taking any of us kids, but insists on an almost 50:50 cash split, which is utterly ridiculous. whenever i protest to this, or any aspect of ... anything, she wants me to put it down in writing to send to court! WTF? pishawf. and my great-nan's dying. DDD; not good.
so... yeah, i've just got a very hectic life at the moment; it's not that i want to leave him behind for ever&ever, it's just that i'm not a person for ridiculously close friends, or boyfriends, or anything like that, tbh, especially not this time in my life. gcse's are around the corner, and there's nothing i'd like to do better than just stop life rotating for a few weeks and catch up. obviously, it wouldn't happen like that, and if i had a little more room to breathe, and less things to do, maybe i'd catch up a bit. maybe i'd do better in my gcse's without nic than i would with nic. it's a long shot, really, but it's worth a try.
anyway, it's not fair to burden nic with all my issues.
and with that, i say farewell. and to all of those who "didn't like me anyway", you're worries are over, i have better things to do P:
:wavey:
c3d: is a cut above.
