Sorry to hear that, sad situation mate, it really is.
Fortunately, this is going to be hard for you to hear right now I know it is, this is a fixable situation no matter if it means with or without this girl.
If this is your first love, it only gets better after this mate, trust me. Your first love
usually isn't the one you end up spending your life with. Through travel, new schools, and all the places you end up meeting new people you will find someone else. I know you may think that's not the case under any circumstance but I'm here to tell you that it is.
You're far too young to let your life be tormented by a woman.... There's a lot to life that you're going to want to see in the upcoming years that quite frankly is better spent not in a hardcore relationship.
I've been through everything you've been through and I know how it feels. I'm sure that a lot of other people on the forum have been through it as well. Chin up mate, chin up. You'll make it through one way or another.
Ok, /pep talk over
Just remember, relax, deep breath, porn
Edit: If you ever want to discuss it PM me and I'll shoot u my phone number and we can chat.